一盏黄黄旧旧的灯时间在旁闷不吭声寂寞下手毫无分寸

不懂得轻重之分沉默支撑跃过陌生

静静看著凌晨黄昏你的身影失去平衡慢慢下沉

黑暗已在空中盘旋该往哪我看不见

也许爱在梦的另一端无法存活在真实的空间

想回到过去试著抱你在怀里羞怯的脸带有一点稚气

想看你的看的世界,想在你梦的画面

只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜想回到过去试著让故事继续

至少不再让你离我而去分散时间的注意

这次会抱得更紧这样挽留不知还来不来得及想回到过去

思绪不断阻挡著回忆播放盲目的追寻仍然空空荡荡

灰蒙蒙的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去

一转身孤单已躺在身旁

何事秋风悲画扇

等闲变却故人心

却道故人心易变

A girl with moonlight in her eyes

Put her hands in his

And said she loved him so

But that was once upon a time

Very long ago

How the breeze

rustle through her hair

How they always laughed as though

Tomorrow wasn't there

They were young and didn't have a care

Where did it go

Once upon a time

The world was sweeter than they knew

Everything was theirs

How happy they were then

But somehow

Once upon a time

Never comes again...

Happy New Year everyone!

At certain point of today, I wanted to say "that's it. Enough is enough" to my life, if any, and to the people who are consistently ruining my life, if any left to be ruined.

Below is a list of things I would like to do everyday:

a. Read books and new papers;

b. Watch TV or DVD;

c. Talk to friends, if there is still any left.

d. Surf interenet;

e. Have 8 hours sleep;

f. Be outside for an hour;

g. Do nothing for a while.

Not that much to ask, isn't it? But still, i cannot get any of them, so here is the snapshot of what I get everyday:

a. Read documents and documents, tons of them;

b. Consider canceling my cable since i never use it;

c. Make some friends in the company so when I am talking to them over work, I feel like talking to friends;

d. I hate internet now and i wish there is no such thing called internet so no one will send me documents over the weekend;

e. I proved that people can live with less than 3 hours sleep for a while;

 f. I think even prisoners get more time to be outside of the cell than me;

g. Not exactly, but I try not to think about anything work related when i am on the toilet.

So, at certain point of today, I wanted to say "That's it. Enough is enough." Not only because I want to get my whatever pathetic life back, also I cannot just let myself slip into sb who is bitchy, demanding, cold and dark. Sometimes it is just hard to face the one in the mirror.

No matter how much I can whining about my life, however, I have to say whatever superpower is up there, he/she/it is fair to me because he/she/it sent some people who are warm, caring, forgiving and interesting to be my best friends. They make me feel I am still a person beloved, despite all the tortures from B&As. They remind me that being nice, kind and considerate is the essential of a good human being. Their sunny disposition shadows away all the darkness and Moonlight (yes, I hate moonlight). After all the disappointments, they make me believe there is still sth to pursue and look forward to in my life.

I know I can survive without them, but I don't know how far I can go. Thank you dears. I do really really love you beyond any words.